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OK so since i've been home been in a bit of a funk. not a cool funk like the music, like a dead end thats not a dead end but can't be called anything else because there doesn't really seem to be anything else. i really dont' know what to do with my life. Lots of options and not really sure about where to go or how to back myself. Normal i suppose but frustrating never the less.
So, because the job hunt was going nowhere and the polo in europe pursual took a lot longer than expected to pluck up the courage for, i succumbed to temping. So am now answering phones and stufing envelopes in order to pay of credit card and raise funds enough to get to europe. despite the face that europe seems ever more elusive.

anyways, in the last few days 4 things have happened to make me decide to start living again. not that i've been dead by any means, just kind of going along like grayness. anyways,

1.watched mama mia. despite my inability to deal very well with musicals, and the main character being really quite annoying to me with her over excitement, i found myself smiling and quite enjoying the movie and being reinvigorated by abbas classics and the colours of the greek isles.

2. watched welcome to the sticks. french film, went with alex (c's hubb) after my date (my sis) decided she wasn't that into it and coralee had to go to netball. excellent movie, haven't laughed that hard for the longest time. plus it had this amazing documation short before it. = animated documentary. it was radical. and the movie, about someone who is forced to move somewhere he really doesn't want to go and ends up loving it, had a good message in it for me i think. i'm not usually one for going to movies as a way of hanging out, but if it's anything but blockbuster, all of a sudden i can't think of a better way to pass my time and bond with people.

3. chatted with my most lovely friend emma from hawaii, who kept asking me what was new with my life, and i had nothing much to say. which is because i've been choosing to do nothing most of the time when i've had a choice. no i thought to myself, maybe i should start doing stuff so i have something to talk about. seems quite silly but a good point when you think about it.

4. alex is doing an image a day thing on his blog. i dont think i have the dedication for a photo a day specifically, but maybe i could make the effort to do a week in pictures type thing. we'll give it a go anyway. might be pretty boring to start with since i have to find a new muse having left hawaii and my model mats, i will just have to find the inspiration from inside or something like that i suppose...

yup.