so i'm finally home, but not really. leaving for china on sunday for a week. then i'll be home.
it's funny being home after so long away and actually having time to breathe, i'm usually running around trying to catch up with people or training or doing something. this week i only have the mandatory training and am only catching up with family and yesterday i got the chance to go for a walk and catch the train - something i haven't done for probably like 4 years or something. so that was fun, the local train station has moved and where it used to be there is a community police/probation office type thing, and where i used to skip through to get to the train station and all the druggies used to hang out is a lovely road with brick foot path and everything. the worn down old buildings are still there, but i dont really think they're that bad. which is funny because if they were anywhere else other than somewhere i walked passed almost every day for like 5 years i would think they were horrible and should be torn down. the new train station is very sparkly and clean and next to the local mall - southmall - which has changed so much since i used to loiter there waiting for mum to finish the groceries, i haven't ventured inside yet. the new world and woolworths are still there but i think that's pretty much it.
i wonder if i'm thinkin this way because i have been reading alex's blogs or because i'm feeling old enough to have seen a bit of change in my neighbourhood... i can't even imagine what manurewa will be like when i'm 40...we'll soon find out anyway!
other than that i'm kind of in mourning still, last of all good-byes for the time being was Meike, i made her a book to remember us, i never thought i'd get through it because it's a pretty big book. but i did! and she wrote me a 4 page, typed out poem and gave me a friendship bracelet with my "colours" on it : )
it was very teary, not much was said because i was for once at a total loss for words. and then she was gone... lucky i have been concentrating on living day to day and not getting too far ahead of myself or i would be in total dispair about next year living without her, rather than just getting teary every now and then when i think of her and all my other friends who i will never get to do life with in person for very long periods of time again.
so thats me for today.
A
Monday, May 21, 2007
Tuesday, May 15, 2007
small change
it was graduation the other day, it was pretty cool. ok so it was a long and boring ceremony but it was also graduation day of about 15 people I know so I kept myself occupied looking out for everyone.
i kinda feel like i'm a little bit in mourning at the mo, it's guna be so strange being here without these peeps who have been my support network since i got here. who have seen me grow up a little bit and been with me the whole time and who know things about me better than i know myself i think. it's hard being the one who is being left behind... usually i'm the one who leaves! feeling a little left behind, they're all going out to their amazing lives and i know they're each guna change the world in their own way and rock the world of those around them. i forget my own little mission and purpose when everyone is moving on to the next chapter, i have to remember i'm here now and i still have to make the most of it because this too is going to come to an end pretty quick and there is a whole year of life to live before then!
so last night we went out for dinner with the roomies to dukes. the poor girls, em and myself went for a run before we met up with them, thinking there would be like a 40min wait and we'd get there in time for the table, but they wouldn't seat anyone till the full party was there so they'd been waiting like a whole hour for us and then had to wait like another 20mins once we got there. felt so bad for them, sorry girls! by the time we sat down we didn't even converse or reminisce, everyone was so hungry we just stuffed our faces and then left! at least it was amazing food. i love dukes! mmm salad bar...
so i'm going home in 3 days for like a week then we're off to china for a week and then back home for like a month or so. so that will be awesome. i'm excited to go to china again, last time was fun but there was a definite culture shock, this time i feel a lot more prepared and ready to experience it. i also have 2 friends who are guna be in beijing (like an hour and a half from where we'll be) and they will be there for a couple of days with not much to do so i'm trying to convince them to come see me so that would be flippin sweet!
And then when I get home there are people to catch up with and weddings to help plan and get excited about! and a job to find and the task of figuring out how to get around and do all this without a car. as much as i would love to improve my bicycling skills, from manurewa to town is just a wee bit far... although it would be amazing training and i would get a lovely bottom out of it.
anyways must be off, things to do and organise before the day is already over.
love the ones you're with
A
i kinda feel like i'm a little bit in mourning at the mo, it's guna be so strange being here without these peeps who have been my support network since i got here. who have seen me grow up a little bit and been with me the whole time and who know things about me better than i know myself i think. it's hard being the one who is being left behind... usually i'm the one who leaves! feeling a little left behind, they're all going out to their amazing lives and i know they're each guna change the world in their own way and rock the world of those around them. i forget my own little mission and purpose when everyone is moving on to the next chapter, i have to remember i'm here now and i still have to make the most of it because this too is going to come to an end pretty quick and there is a whole year of life to live before then!
so last night we went out for dinner with the roomies to dukes. the poor girls, em and myself went for a run before we met up with them, thinking there would be like a 40min wait and we'd get there in time for the table, but they wouldn't seat anyone till the full party was there so they'd been waiting like a whole hour for us and then had to wait like another 20mins once we got there. felt so bad for them, sorry girls! by the time we sat down we didn't even converse or reminisce, everyone was so hungry we just stuffed our faces and then left! at least it was amazing food. i love dukes! mmm salad bar...
so i'm going home in 3 days for like a week then we're off to china for a week and then back home for like a month or so. so that will be awesome. i'm excited to go to china again, last time was fun but there was a definite culture shock, this time i feel a lot more prepared and ready to experience it. i also have 2 friends who are guna be in beijing (like an hour and a half from where we'll be) and they will be there for a couple of days with not much to do so i'm trying to convince them to come see me so that would be flippin sweet!
And then when I get home there are people to catch up with and weddings to help plan and get excited about! and a job to find and the task of figuring out how to get around and do all this without a car. as much as i would love to improve my bicycling skills, from manurewa to town is just a wee bit far... although it would be amazing training and i would get a lovely bottom out of it.
anyways must be off, things to do and organise before the day is already over.
love the ones you're with
A
Tuesday, May 08, 2007
the ship that never sailed
i've tried 3 times to post this post but every time the internet cuts out right when i go to post. so now i'm in a cafe and that wont happen. but i can't be bothered analysing the whole thing for the 4th time so this will be short
we're not going to nationals. a committee decided that even though we wasted san diego state and have been ranked higher than them since the end of march, they still deserved to go more than us because they played more games and won more games against division 2 and 3 teams. so we got robbed.
in the last 3 posts that never posted i explained that as heart-breaking as this whole thing had been, we still had something to be proud of we've come so far this year as a team and we can hold our heads high. personally my world has been rocked upside down this year, i feel a lot older (lol, maybe have the emotional maturity of a 10 yr old now) and calm about the world and water polo and people and their opinions. so yea it really sucks but i've taken things out of this season that are so much more valuable than a plaque to say we were at NCAAs 2008 and 3 more games.
I got back in the water yesterday with a couple of other girls, but just wasn't ready to pass yet. the funny thing is, neither were a bunch of other girls. i had to giggle. i'll give it a go tonight. we'll see how it goes : )
in other news, i'm done with school! woop woop! had 3 exams yesterday and now i just have to write a couple more pages on a paper and then, c'est tout!
days are counting down to when 10 of my friends leave... i cried the other night, i got to pay tribute to some of them and burst into tears in front of like 50 people. yea, story of my life : )
and thats it for now : )
peace
we're not going to nationals. a committee decided that even though we wasted san diego state and have been ranked higher than them since the end of march, they still deserved to go more than us because they played more games and won more games against division 2 and 3 teams. so we got robbed.
in the last 3 posts that never posted i explained that as heart-breaking as this whole thing had been, we still had something to be proud of we've come so far this year as a team and we can hold our heads high. personally my world has been rocked upside down this year, i feel a lot older (lol, maybe have the emotional maturity of a 10 yr old now) and calm about the world and water polo and people and their opinions. so yea it really sucks but i've taken things out of this season that are so much more valuable than a plaque to say we were at NCAAs 2008 and 3 more games.
I got back in the water yesterday with a couple of other girls, but just wasn't ready to pass yet. the funny thing is, neither were a bunch of other girls. i had to giggle. i'll give it a go tonight. we'll see how it goes : )
in other news, i'm done with school! woop woop! had 3 exams yesterday and now i just have to write a couple more pages on a paper and then, c'est tout!
days are counting down to when 10 of my friends leave... i cried the other night, i got to pay tribute to some of them and burst into tears in front of like 50 people. yea, story of my life : )
and thats it for now : )
peace
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